DEDICATED TO BRIAN HOLCOMBE

Everytime i think about you i think: "i was never good enough"you treated christel and kristine better then me...you went to see them, you bought them stuff, you spent time with them. you never cheated or anything wrong with them...



to me you: lied, cheated, never saw me, never even called me on my birthday, never even got me a card, you never called back, you always got mad at me for always geting suspisous of you cheating and you know why,. most of all you made me feel like i wasnt worth anything. i was in san diego and you didnt even come and see me!!!!!!!!!!....i was less then 20mins away from you!!!! when you where in friscko you didnt even come see me!!!...there i was less then 10mins away from you!!!!!1



i know you never said anything verbally but your actions made it seem like that...to me I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH for you to even just see once in the past 2 1/2 years. The only nice thing you ever did for me was talk to me on the fone



dont get me wrong...i loved all the times we talked on the fone...but really...it felt like i was in a relationship with my cell phone...i only saw you once in my life...kinda sad huh??...i only saw you once because i was never good enough to see again



I did more stuff for you than you ever did for me...your the guy isnt it supose to be the other way around?...i got you cards on your birthdays and christmas.. i called you on your birthday, i got you presents, i let you put me through the stress of you on my fone bill and payin me late, i took you back when you did me wrong, i let you make me cry and get mad at me even more when i did. i made my 18th birthday in la just so you can come, did you. i never told you this but i was crying because you never came that day...i was crying on my own birthday cuz of you!!!



the wrong i did to you: i cussed at you when you cheated, i cussed at you when ever you didnt pay me, and i kept callin your house disturbing your whole family till YOU answered. and you know you deserved it



the main point im getting at is why???....what did i do to make u treat me like that?...why havnt you ever came to see me?...you havnt you ever done a nice jesture for me?...you say you got me stuff...why couldnt you have sent it?







WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE YOU TREAT ME THE WAY YOU DO?