To keep you guys updated

So from the last time I wrote in here it was probably a week before the LA trip. Well Carlo did surprise me. Even though the surprise got kinda ruined lol. I was in the van trying to sleep. Then I over heard Ericka giving directions to Carlo on the fone. I guess she didn't know I was in the van lol.

It's okay. It's the thought that counts. He also tried surprising me for valentines day too. But that also got ruined lol. I don't think he can surprise me without me knowing lol. It's okay. I love the fact he tries. He is the best boyfriend ever. I don't think ANYone can compare to him. I can say I know for sure that this is the guy I will be marrying and spending my life with. I really can't see myself without him and him without me.

People say me and him are moving too fast. I say me and him are moving in our OWN pace. It shouldn't matter to use how people think of our relationship as long as we both are happy and trust each other fully.

What else is going on with my life? Other than being really happy with my boyfriend. I've been obessed with Desperate Housewives soap lol, I have no job, I just found out this morning that my ex was cheating and lieing to me since day one of our so called relationship, and i might confront him about that later. I can't tell him who told me though because my friend and her soon to be boothang will get in trouble. So instead I'm going to tell him that this other guy told me, who alot of us hate because he is a cheater just like my ex, but I'm so over it because I'm so in love with Mr. Carlo Abarquez =D. And lastly I almost had a kidney stone. almost had to go to the E.R. this morning. Sort of. Well if the pain I'm having continued then yes I would of. But it all went away this morning when I woke up. THANK YOU Lord for not going to the E.R. Or I would have to explain to my parents how I got kidney stone/bladder infection (I'll just call it that lol). But to let you guys know my pain is almost 100% gone. No more pain when I pee or my lower side of my left back where my kidney is located. Even with all those stuff going on in my life. I STILL LOVE IT. The reason why is because (this is going to sound so clishaeish and corney) I have the love of my life and God with me. The 2 basic things I basically need in my life.

I really need a job though. hopefully I will get one soon. I HATE BEING BROKE!!! It sucks alot. I hate not having a relyable source of income. Bleh. Hopefully I find a job soon.

Well tis all for now. Till the next time I write in here. I don't know when that will be though lol

I MISS CARLO...and i cant sleep

so i cant sleep rite now...i never can anymore..ima be goin to la this weekend...cant wait...goin to disneyland too...havnt been there since i was 18..life for me since i last wrote in here as been the same...really good...except for the fact i miss my boyfren like crazy...he is the first person i usually talk to everyday..and the last...he is a hottie...MY hottie that is lol...the only thing that sucks about him is that he lives 8 hours away from me..he is tha perfect boyfren and i never wanna lose him so enuff bout him...

im hungry lol..some of the youth and i will be going to fugis on wensday...i really cant wait cuz i hant had sushi in a really long time...its bout time i had some lol...OMG.. SO CANT WAIT TILL DISNEYLAND!!! lol..it will be hella fun...hopefully the boothang will come too to make it even better..cuz everyone going will be paired up in couples...who am i gunna be paired up with??? lol...i think the only real single people in the youth are my sister, michelle, and matt...everyone else taken haha...we're all getting old...other then jill n jojo getting married...i think me n carlo (if we make it that far(which i think we are)) then idk after us...

its so weird that we're all getting older...im like really scared of getting older... im scared of getting older...im scared of getting fragile...like always depending on other people...and maybe loosing my memory...that would really suck...like i will be dead while im alive because i dont know anything whats going on around me and stuff...wow i need to stop thinking about it and go to sleep now..good night world!!!

1ST BLOG OF THA YEAR...NEW BEGGININGS

So from my las blog that i wrote...i left of to where my n carlo wer just talking...well WE ARE OFFICIAL now lol...he is one of tha greatest guys i noe...i like him alot..he is tha first guy i ever brought to my parents or family to meet...he takes good care of me n everything...he is everything i want in a guy..except tha shortness part...i really like this guy infinity times infinity lol

I can so be myself around him...no make up..unshaved legs...just woken up...un brushed teeth...burp in his face...be a pain in tha butt...be annoyin...n he still likes me!!!...i can talk to him about nething..i just hate how far he lives from me...he ws here for like 2 weeks n went back on sunday nite...damn i hella miss him..i really want me n him to last

A Guy I'm Starting to Like

I haven't wrote in here in a while...well i guess alot has happened...Preshus's catilion...year end...and thats mainly tha big events...well year end was really good...i had fun...and thats when I saw Carlo...I've known him before...like Four years ago was the last time i saw him at youth camp...And i remembered really well that he wiped his sweat on me!!! lol...well that is how he remembers me too after I had to remind him lol...well I saw carlo and i was like oh shoot!!! HAHA...I thought he was kinda cute...but i neva thought nething else of it...so he was there in and outta tha sactuary...during service and stuff...i was eyein him lol...then he left early...i ws like darn...i wnt be able to introduce myself to him...i was like watever...not really trippin

When the service ends i ask his brotha Aaron about him...he just sed tha usual stuff i already knew about him...then i asked kayla bout him and she told me some stuff lol...i told her not to tell Aaron lol...

The next day roles around and its preshus's catilion...we did all the stuff, get ready, drive around, everywhere, take pictures ect...Hadda hella fun time...got my drank on lol

The next day Jenn and I went to babysit Lanie...I was bored so I thought of lookin up carlo on Aaron's page...Score I found him!!! hahaha...thats how we started talkin from there

It's been like 2 weeks we've been talkin now...we talk every night...He asked me to meet his family next thanksgiving!!!!...like omg!!!...He related to the Manondongs!!!!...bleh..I'm not trippen out about the rest of the family...But Jon jon, Analyn, and Jessie!!!...I don't know if they even like me!!! lol...AAAAAHHHHH...omg IM SCARED HAHA...hopefully everything will be good...aaaaahhhh...bleh...okay..tis all...i'll blog more later

niaomi's wedding

so this past weekend was my cousin's wedding...it made me realize alot of things...first of..is that i barely know my family on my dad's side...i dont even know some of my own cousin's names!!!...thats really sad...i really want to get to know them better...i barely know there lives except for the fact wer related to the same people on my dad's side!!!...they are alot more fun the cousin's i have on my momz side lol

also...weddings...every single time i wanna plan my wedding...i only need a few things...a place to have it, my colors, a groom, and side for table arrangements lol...weddings are so lovely...its funny i always say i want a wedding but not a mmarraiage lol...plannin all those stuff must be stressful AND fun at the same time...i love dollin up for big events n stuff...wat more my own wedding???

ima have everything,...tha fireworks, doves, outside wedding...omg...its gunna be tha tightest weddin neone has ever had!!! lol...plusmmy rock gunna be so big it brakes my arm!!!! lol

ALSO I WORE THAT DRESS TWICE!!!..which is really embarassing lol

fugis..IM HUNGRY!!!!

I WANT TO GO TO DISNEYLAND!!!...funny this is a picture at great america though ahaha..but i will be goin to disneyland in december or january!!!!!!!...yay me!!! hahaha

so this weekend...is my cuzos big old wedding!!!...i cant wait haha...i love dollin up lol...its gunna be at tha base...i love goin to weddings!!!..i want a wedding...but not a marriage haha...sometimes i actually want both haha...this blog is so out of it!!!

its cuz im bored!!! haha...so im tryna get into my old xanga...but i cant figure out my old user name n password haha

i need a new hairstyle...im so gettin tired of this one...i had it since may...as everyone can tell i have like add with my hair haha...i can have tha same hairstyle for too long...im surprised i left it on this long...i normally change it with in 2 months hah

well its lunch time for me...i will be back!!!! lol

THE APOLOGY

So finally Brian apologized to me...It really felt good that he did...i finally have the clouser that I've been wanting...

I admit I felt all these feelings comming back a little...he kept saying that he owes me alot

YEAH THAT NIGGA DO!!...yeah i still care for him...yeah that made miss him..but watever...everything that's happening is supose to be happening

i am so happy in my life rite now...i love my life and every thats in it and especially the people who isnt anymore!!!

So brian...if you ever read this...i love you and take care...thank you for this last four years of lessons learned..hope everything goes good for you and that you do find the right girl someday..

P.S....I MIGHT ASK THAT PAYMENT FROM YOU SOMEDAY LOL