blah blah bleh: 2007

Thursday, November 8, 2007

DEDICATED TO BRIAN HOLCOMBE

Everytime i think about you i think: "i was never good enough"you treated christel and kristine better then me...you went to see them, you bought them stuff, you spent time with them. you never cheated or anything wrong with them...

to me you: lied, cheated, never saw me, never even called me on my birthday, never even got me a card, you never called back, you always got mad at me for always geting suspisous of you cheating and you know why,. most of all you made me feel like i wasnt worth anything. i was in san diego and you didnt even come and see me!!!!!!!!!!....i was less then 20mins away from you!!!! when you where in friscko you didnt even come see me!!!...there i was less then 10mins away from you!!!!!1

i know you never said anything verbally but your actions made it seem like that...to me I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH for you to even just see once in the past 2 1/2 years. The only nice thing you ever did for me was talk to me on the fone

dont get me wrong...i loved all the times we talked on the fone...but really...it felt like i was in a relationship with my cell phone...i only saw you once in my life...kinda sad huh??...i only saw you once because i was never good enough to see again

I did more stuff for you than you ever did for me...your the guy isnt it supose to be the other way around?...i got you cards on your birthdays and christmas.. i called you on your birthday, i got you presents, i let you put me through the stress of you on my fone bill and payin me late, i took you back when you did me wrong, i let you make me cry and get mad at me even more when i did. i made my 18th birthday in la just so you can come, did you. i never told you this but i was crying because you never came that day...i was crying on my own birthday cuz of you!!!

the wrong i did to you: i cussed at you when you cheated, i cussed at you when ever you didnt pay me, and i kept callin your house disturbing your whole family till YOU answered. and you know you deserved it

the main point im getting at is why???....what did i do to make u treat me like that?...why havnt you ever came to see me?...you havnt you ever done a nice jesture for me?...you say you got me stuff...why couldnt you have sent it?

WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE YOU TREAT ME THE WAY YOU DO?

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

YOU MAKE ME SO MAD!!!

you get on my nerves....wen wer mad at each otha your really mean!!!!....omg...ima crack!!!!...you think its hella hard just on your end dont you???...all you friggin think bout is yourself and how hard it is for you!!!!...dont you know how hard it is for me too??? huh???.... your not the only one that friggin has problems in this world...stop bein hella selfish!!!! your the one always bein hella mean bout shizz!!!!....your da one makin it hard!!!!! a simple call back!!!...omg is that so friggin hard!!! DAMN!!!!...who ever reads this you guys noe who im talkin about!!!!...you really dont get it do you????...everything has to go ur friggin way dont it???...why cant it be my way sometimes....your on da fone with me now...your just silent...ur friggin ANNOYIN AND BORING!!!!!!!

Thursday, July 26, 2007

fustraited

furstriated cuz i have no money!!!!...look at me jenn n jae!!!! eatin safeway canned food!!! n jae n ericka got nasty tastin salsa!!!!

Monday, July 16, 2007

i cudnt sleep

the start of last summer

so i was lyin in bed...idk...i ws really upset bout sumthings...either that or im just getting my period soon...i started trippin off brian...then i started thinkin bout the youth group how things are different since i got back...i really think i am gettin my rag...cuz i noe ima get it if i cry for no reason...n thats wat i did tonite haha

it is now 306am...jordel called me 30mins ago...he cudnt sleep either...he told me what he did yesturday (sunday)...he sed stuff bout berkely den goin to play tenis...once he sed tenis..i ws like omg...i remember wen we used to that last summer...da youth wud be at glen cove park or sumwer playin with a volleyball...i miss those good times...what was the highest number we got up to??? lol

it is already the middle of summer...its been since i got back home...make the most of it rite???....im hungry...i think ima eat...den hopefully sleep adios